just phoebe

best sunset of the year

2009-07-20T23:56:00.002+08:00

i can hold the sun with my fingers...

2009-06-14T13:53:00.000+08:00

my precious baby...lol...

food poisoning

2009-06-14T13:42:00.002+08:00

pathetic..i m on medical leave today just because i ate some frozen durian yesterday nite.. sad..
i vomitted 4 times and diarrhea 3 times before i nearly pass out. everything looks so black. so they were worried and brought me to the doctor. and i was diagnosed with "food poisoning". back from clinic at 8 smth. felt like i didnt sleep for years.. went to my room and i pengsan terus.. but manage to wake up and brush my teeth at 10pm.. after that, straight away Zzzzz... and woke up 9.30am. slept for 11.5 hours for god's sake.. cant believe myself..
now i m a patient, staying at home. eating porridge. life sucks.. i m missing somebody that i shouldnt miss... or maybe i think i shouldnt..
oh...life sucks.. it really does.. haha..

awwwwww

2009-06-10T00:11:00.002+08:00

at last tomorrow can off..relax. wanted to go sing k..but i think better rest at home..been a tiring week.. maybe go on friday.. my acne popping out from my forehead.. gosh!!
so many of them..need to get rid of my fringe d..old d...skin deteriorate...brain too.. alwiz no energy to drive...long journey to work really taking much of my energy..need to rest tmr..sleep sleep n sleep...

frustrated

2009-06-07T19:00:00.002+08:00

went to jusco today and bought apair of jeans, shoes, few baju.. its been about 2 weeks since i m transfer to pacific branch. still not getting used to it. i guess my holiday mood wont go away dat quick.. been a tough time. 1st time in my life i have to decide on so many things, all new.. and messed up. i guess its a challenge given by GOD. a real tough challenge.. but i've learned and growed so much from this. once in a lifetime experience. realized dat life's just too short. maybe dont be to conservative, risk is not always bad. its always give and take..

been so lonely in bm.. i miss kl.. dun wish to argue with them at home every other day. just too tired of arguements. i m really not used to be controlled or "cared"..

so messed up and stressed.. why those people never think of their retirement.. why they never bother to care?? how they think they'll survive after retirement?? reall dont understand..
to have children is to give them the chance to experience life.. to have their own life with your love and blessings..
not to let yourself be their burden and make them feel helpless...

YaKi YaKi

2009-04-16T22:58:00.003+08:00

went to makan at yaki yaki buffet yesterday.. it was similiar to jogoya, just that u need to grill some of the food. they have lamb,beef, chiken,fish,scallop,lala... u can grill everything. even japanese mochi they ask u to grill for 3 minutes. pengsan =.='''. but it was kinda nice, the food is tasty.. compared to jogoya , yaki yaki got lesser dessert and cookies. and they dont serve haagen daz ice creams. so i didnt bother to eat that..hahahaha.. but their sashimi was great. got abalone somemore.. not bad not bad. still, jogoya has more choice...hahahaha...i love jogoya. better service, better environment and more choices of food.of course yaki yaki got some special yummy stuff like beef belly, sanma fish, grilled scallop, tasty spaghetti (damn delicious) and their udon soup.. banyak sedap. i ate a lot.. so got stomachache. and this morning woke up feeling sick..hahaha... at least i dun eat like that s often. once in a while is okay.. however..hope i can go to jogoya again this month. my voucher gonna expire already..

top hat

2009-03-30T22:30:00.002+08:00

finally the pain is over... i m free again.. saturday night my branch closed at 8.30pm.. to support 60 earth hour..so went to makan with sis and housemates..it was chinese hot pot.. so spicy that i couldnt eat much.. sakit perut.. anyway it was yummy..

then, sunday after telelink, went to this restaurant name " Top Hat". nice name. nice place. nice food. nice price. hahahha... 3 of us ate only 2 sets and 1 side dish.. RM286.00... not bad..wasnt my treat anyway.. its for sis's late birthday treat..hahahaa..i tumpang sahaja.."nyek nyek nyek"....

- we start with 2 soups, spicy pumkin, and green pea soup.. i m not into any of them but the green pea 1 taste better if i have to choose 1..hahaha..
-the 1st main dish is trio lamb..3 types of different lamb... so delicious!!! never taste something so yummy.. my gosh.. but the portion was damn small..hahaha...
-then comes the beef..it was okay..average but still very tasty..
-then it was this smoked salmon nicoise salad...the salmon was nice..but not much to eat..hahhahahah
-here comes the sinful part.. we ordered "sinful chocolate delight".. it was quite sinful.. its like the "chocolate moist cake" u can get from secret recipe.. but has richer chocolate.. thats why its sinful..lol..
- the other dessert will be the "creme brulee".. nice..i loved it but they say it tasted like egg tart... what ever... i still liked it. muahahhha...
- last.. 1st time ever.. we had our ice cream.. hand made ginger flavour and tricheal flavour i think..forgot how they spell it.. something like advanced honey.. hahaha..but the ginger 1 was yummy..really didnt know that u can actually make ice cream in ginger flavour and it taste so much better.. we top it with caramel and strawberry sauce.. damn yummy..

thats about all we had.. it was a great place..

2009-03-28T13:10:00.004+08:00

The relation between your two eyes..
they ..
blink together
move together
see things together
cry together
sleep together..
though they never see each other...

and..
they will never ..
envy
jealous
hate
compare
argue
or fight with each other.. =)

nightmare

2009-03-27T13:37:00.002+08:00

i was walking happily in my dreams then suddenly someone told me, i m pregnant.. and my mum was there, asking me who is the dad of the child, i couldnt answer her.. hahahaha.,... scary man.. how could i be pregnant, all by myself.. i was scared in my dreams.. then i cried.. nearly woke up crying though but lucky enough i didnt..hahaha.. anyway, it was frightening..and i wish it'll never come true.. lol...siau liao..

money not enough

2009-03-26T23:41:00.003+08:00

been spending so much lately.. mum's birthday present..100 bucks, bro's birthday present 200bucks, car service..200 bucks..havent buy anything for dad's birthday yet..he wants a handphone..=.='''
so far..till today i m overbudget already..
will be kinda broke this month..*sigh*..save harder next month!!
money money come come...

i miss bm..miss my darling..nani nani pupu..hahahaha...

kerachut

2009-03-23T12:08:00.000+08:00

finally...i made it.. went to kerachut 2 days ago.. it was tugher than i thought it is..i managed to hike there..menikmati the beach..and saw lots of jelly fish..then realised that i actually have to hike the same distance..to get out from there..*shit*
we went to ask, 1 boat trip cost RM100.. damn expensive..wat to do..hike lo...i thought i'll die there..cos i was like short of breath. felt like wana vomit, or faint anytme. that's why joyce and kee yung dont want to go hiking with. pathetic...
but with mac d in my mind.. i manage to get out from there..hahahahah..
so proud of myself. but i still need lots of training to be able to hike mount kinabalu..this is just the begining. must try hard..
gambateh!!

to buy or not to buy?

2009-03-17T23:48:00.000+08:00

my big sis wana take back her car. so means that me n erjie got only 1 car left. though we still can tolerate, but a bit inconvenient lo..
sis told me yeserday, maybe i should consider having my own car..so i guess its time..got to consider what type of car i want, how much, maintenace, and how much can i pay per month.. getting a 2nd hand car sounds ok too..but i m jus afraid that it might have some hidden problems..
then half way driving i m stuck at the middle of no where.. hahaha.. scary..
have to think..think and think.. see how lo..
time to sleep..

2008-10-06T22:17:00.000+08:00

do u know wat is it like to have a hole in ur heart? someone's sister died today,..cos she has a hole in her heart...marie's dad passed away yesterday..my gosh..our life is so fragile..
it makes me scared.. my heart was aching quite seriously yesterday nite.... and it aches again jus now.. its not the 1st time.. they asked me to go for check up but..i scared...wat if i found out smth dat i shudnt??
den i rather appreciate now than to be sad of smth else..
its getting worse dat last time..
yesterday nite i cant breath..the pain was a bit more than previous ones..
i cant slp yesterday cos i was afraid dat i might not wake up today..
it really frighten me...i dun wan to hv such short life...but i guess i think too much..

i m sick..again

2008-08-18T22:16:00.000+08:00

wat the hell is hapening??
y is my life like dis??
i saw my beloved throat tru mirror jus now...it looks like some1 poke it wit smth sharp...blisters everywhere..
its so painful..i hardly swallow my saliva..
doc says i got very very high fever..very serious tonsils infection...haih...n my head ache like hell..i can hardly slp..
i took 4 courses of d medicine d...still d same..only fever got controlled...but fever rises cos my tonsils r inflamed..its giving me headaches..
enuf working problem d la..my manager so bor syok when i mc..i wonder if i can work tmr...
my whole body's nerves r paining..feels like they put poison in it..i was shivering yesterday nite...as if i m in snow house..
doc says if cant cure by dis 2 days, must go n check again..suspected dengue fever liao..but hor, dengue will get tonsils infection meh??
duno la...jus hope i wont get admited to hosp again..maybe i m stressed...
stressed of work..n stressed of family matters...

T_T

2008-07-21T22:46:00.000+08:00

its been the longest winter without u
i didnt know where to turn to...
see somewhow i cant forget u..
after all dat we've been through..

go in, come in, thought i heard a knock,
who's there? no one...
thinking dat i deserve it
now i realized dat i really didnt noe.......
u didnt notice
u mean everything
quickly i m learning
to love again...
all i know is, i ma be okay...

tot i couldnt live without u
its gonna hurt even when it heals too
it'll all get better in time
even though i really loved u,
i m gonna smile cos i deserved to...
it'll all get better in time

how could i turn on d tv..
without something there to remind me..
was it all dat easy??
to jus put aside ur feelings...

if i m dreaming, dun wana let hurt my feelings..
but dats d path i believe in,
n i know time will heal it...
u didnt notice
u mean everything
quickly i m learning
to love again
all i know is, i ma be okay........

thought i couldnt live without u
its gonna hurt when it heals to...
it'll all get better in time
even though i really loved u
i m gonna smile cos i deserved to...
it'll all get better in time..

since there's no more u n me..
its time i let u go so i can be free...................
n live my life how it shud be
no matter how hard it is, i'll be fine without u..
yes i will...

thought i couldnt live without u...
its gonna hurt when it heals to...
it'll all get better in time
even though i really loved u
i m gonna smile cos i deserve to..
yes i do....
it'll all get better in time...

thought i couldnt live without u..
its gonna hurt when it heals to..
it'll all get better in time...

:~(

happy

2008-04-22T12:15:00.000+08:00

yea....got my cert today...
saying dat dis is to certify..bla bla bla.... n is entitled to the distnguishing initials, FBDO..
at last i got wat i wan here...my job is done
so now hv to wait for d time to be released.....finish my contract n blah...
go where?
wana be air stewardess....manicurist
some ppl say " u wana waste ur cert?"
so hard only u get it, y dun wan continue to be optician?
sien....hv been in optical line for 4 yrs ++
nth special bout it..
but if i wana be stewardess,hv to let go everything i hv now...go far away...
dunno wat i wan....
dats life...cest la vie....
gosh i hvnt call d driving academy.........till now.....delay so long...
maybe i m scared to drive again...to be a beginner is not easy..
worried sick..
wana buy new phone sumore ler..all oso $$$$$$...
i asked joyce jus now, if she wana take contact lens course..
it cost bout 10k...not d money...but if i fail, hv to pay again, waste money..
even my lecturers failed theirs...imagin, 2 top students...
both failed...n now couple...hahahah......
life sucks...boring...went to borders yerterday,tot wana buy yakuza moon...no stock..
but d gal told me d price...rm87.75...siau...
so expensive...manalah i mampu..
aih....dunno got sell pirated ones or not....really wan to read dat book..
come on,drop from d sky..hahahhaha........

-_-'''

2008-03-17T15:43:00.000+08:00

everything went normal today..but at about 3 pm, a man walk in my shop wit a baby boy sitting on a baby wheel chair...i tot he wana buy glasses,but he was...speechless...
i looked at him for a few seconds...my staff was standing beside me, den suddenly d man blurted out," ah..dis is so embarrassing....(pause), hie my name is bryan,dis is my son, we came from puchong....." , "actually i need ur help, when i reach here jus now, i realise dat i ve dropped my wallet, i called my sister n she can only be here at 5.15 pm...but i hv no cash or credi card wit me at d moment...i need to buy reload coupon,...and some food for dis little thing here.." we both looked at his son..d baby boy smiled...so cute.....and his dad continue," i need to borrow some 31 bucks from u...i'll pay u back when my sister is here..." he looked so sincere...and i was wondering, wat r u going to do wit 31 bucks?? weird...but they both were sweating like hell...
and d baby smiled at me again....poor little thing...so i rushed to my drawer,got my wallet n pulled out 31 bucks for him, he gave me his name, ic no, hp no and house address...in puchong...he said he'll be back by 5.30pm...
den i was bz...about 6.15pm, i realised dat he din appear to return d money he borrowed..
den i waited...till we close...no signs of them...
my colleagues said dat i was cheated....asked me to call his cellphone but , i was thinking, if he really hv d heart to return d money, he'll do it.......no point making dat call...so i jus let it go...maybe smth happened...r maybe they really need d money..
31 bucks is not a big amount....
my colleague says dat i m too naive, or i think he wana say stupid..kakakakaka...
but anyways,if dis nvr happen, i might loose my money in any other way...
i jus feel dat 1 day, when we r in their shoes, i m sure we will be grateful if some1 help us out...
i m jus worried about d little boy...may god bless them...

sleepy...

2008-03-04T16:32:00.000+08:00

its d 3rd day of march...time passed really fast..today is my first day working wit my new manager..but i was 15 mins late...cant get cab..aih..takdir de..but he's ok..din say anything..they waited for me outside d shop so paiseh when i reach..i m d only 1 holding d key..so mou pan fat la..hehe..
march started quite well though josie is transfered to sunway ade...i hv to go to work alone..go home alone...is bad..cab cost about rm 500++ permonth n its so dangerous going home at nite by cab,..but nth can be done...i cant drive,..feel so useless..
nvm , i hv to determine...must get my license dis mth..must show myself i can do it..
rain heavily dis few days..very cold...n wet of cos..
but syok to sleep la...
dunno wats wrong wit d pc...msn suddenly hang...today din online at branch cos dat fella keep using d pc...msn la...mail la...n all those chinese websites dat i dun understand..nvm la..he's d man now ma.hahhahaha..
as long as i did my job,nth else i shud be worried about..
there r acnes growing randomly on my face..dunno wats wrong wit it...
amway products dat i've changed,d clarifying moisturiser shud be ok ma..but dunno y now alwiz got small acne coming out at d edge..near my hair...
may be my hair's causing it to stuck...
hmm..sleepy la..
yesterday i dreamt dat my sis,noe a gal,who's jay chow's personal assistant
she will help him sign all those posters...n i asked for a few...to give them to kim hwa..
she loves jay like hell..haha...d dream was so real, i was so excited + overjoyed n suddenly i woke up..in my bedroom....nth left..i look at d poster on d wall...no signature..
how sad...hahahaha....how i wish it never end...wat a weird dream it was...maybe i think to much about mrs jay......haha..missed her too much...
hope tonite i wont do d same thing again...
really sleepy..

2008-02-24T14:05:00.000+08:00

its been yrs since i last updated my blog....haha....nobody wana view anymore......jus read jamie's blog jus now,kesian la....but in life, if u never taste bitter, u wont appreciate sweetness....

got my results few days ago, passed my exam..at last!!!!! after how many million yrs of delay....
finally wana pay ade...so now i m a qualified optician...but d cert hv to wait for uk to send it to hometown..
met dato yesterday, he wants me to take challenge....but.....i m jus a worthless little gal...y me??
i noe i look tough but i cant handle so much stress....he wants me to answer him by tuesday...
whether i wan to stay here n make a 80k sales for him(currently is 48k) or transfer to other branch...n same thing...challenge him, build up sales...all he wants is sales....ya la..i noe, he's d boss ma....or last choice..bcome float...btw 2 branches. tot so easy meh? no responsibility but sales very not stable...which branch need optician,hv to go..feels like tennis ball...hit here n there...

so tired dis few days...hv to work for 7 days...continuosly....y am i so gud?? i can actually jus leave both of them...den i can take off....but i cannot "fong sam"....i m jus too responsible on my job..but who cares?? only god noes.... i m tired.. i need a break.. or maybe i shud take challenge n get out of dis boring branch...den jus go fool around outside....try new things dat i never tried... take new challenges...at least i noe i did smth extraordinary in my life...smth dat i dun dare to try...
it only takes courage...nth else.....

hmm....but...i dunno but wat...but i jus...wana say d word but...haha.....
i m scared...pressured...afraid dat i m not able to take challenge... i've learned dat in dis society, there's no 1 better to help u, to side u, to back u up, other than urself......
dats life...ya dats jus life...come on gal...grow up...

my mum's putting a big hope on my backpay..those salary dat r hold when my results r hold...
i guess they r thinking now, wat to buy wit my backpay...new car? new XXX....
everything new....my dad..is d biggest problem....they sure ask me to pay house loan,all bills....
maybe dat tv at home,which is broken....
or he might suddenly appear in front of my house in kl...den borrow some cash to go visit uncle lim.....see??
i hv commitments....so, to commit to dato dat i can do better than anthony who cays he can commit 70k, its a very very big deal to me.....
again...to remind u, i m jus a weak,tiny,helpless..clueless...little gal...
jus let me finish my 2 yrs contract with u n i can do wat ever i wan...
air hostess maybe....or learn manicure....how about hair styling??
those were my "ambitions" other than nutritionist....but dis is a bit too impossible...haha...
nvm....since dat i've live my life until today...i'll hv to continue living it as crazy n as memorable as possible.....
alwiz remember : there wont be another year in ur life where u can say i m 22 yrs old....
when will u hv another 23,24,25,26 n so on....so hv to appreciate it really well....do wat u wish to do,dream as big as u wan....make sure u've done ur best to achieve wat u wan to reach in life....
ppl alwiz say..d result is not important, its d journey dat matters....

so jus live life up...n put troubles in a pocket with a hole....haha...
but i usually cant do it...its a bit difficult....

come on gals......learn to love urself...respect urself...accept urself....dis way u r making d world to love, respect n accept u as who u think u r.....
so...i think i m cute, n lovely.....hahahahahaahahah.......................

wow...i felt much relieved after blah"ing" so much out here.....it jus feel sOOOOOOOOO gOOOOOOOOOOOd......
wakakakakakaka....
wana close shop liao....bye bye my dear, my love, my everything..........

sweet

2008-01-13T08:27:00.000+08:00

i was serving an old couple from texas,us jus now....in their 60s...but they were frendly...d old lady got keratoconus...
she was sad dat her vision is not clear..but dats d best i can do...
n i overheard she whispered to her hubby,"its so sweet of her,she did her best but its jus my eyes.."
i felt guilty...aih...nth i can do..but she's considerate..
n when i was filling up d form,they were talking...she commented on how he alwiz lost his glasses...sort of like ejek him..
but, dat old man reaction was, " ya i used to loose them but u were alwiz there helping me to search for them.."
den he stared into her eyes....n said, "baby,i could never live without u in my life.."
oh...i was thinking, so sweet....but pls la...kenot see i'm here kah...
pai seh betul...hahahahaha...
but they were really nice...old couple...n she flew a kiss to me b4 they leave..saying loudly..thanks..i love u phoebe ....
i bukan main proud la....hahahaha....

its new year

2008-01-02T07:24:00.000+08:00

its 1st january...but everything is still d same....
i still cant get my results..no salary increment...nth...
dunno wat i'm waiting here..
n i dun understand wat those ppl r celebrating...
jus now terkepit my middle finger really hard...ouch!!!!! so painful..
my whole hand oso sakit...i was supposed to off today n tmr
but now seems like no hope...
he nvr do anything but alwiz claim dat he did a lot..
he told me, "phoebe,i'm not a superman,dun expect me to do everything for u"
"u r d supervisor there...solve d problem urself.."
i dun understand..if ur supervisor cant solve d prob,shouldnt she go to u?
wat kind of sup am i??jus a puppet...
n he took us for granted..only 2 manpower..how do u expect us to work?
no need to off?
he said "this kind of petty stuff dun hv to trouble me la,as a sup u shud do it"
i called other branches to borrow manpower but. nth happen...
i envy other branches where their branch managers will work together wit them
mine??? jus a piece of wood....

my oral health

2007-12-04T05:30:00.000+08:00

went to dentist today..she said its not d old filling..there another new decay on d other side...so,wat can i say??....got my filling..85 bucks..so expensive lo.....no money liao but still hv to do it coz it has been bugging me since last week..dentist told me there's actually another decay on d upper premolar tooth....dat means another 85bucks..told her dat i'll fix it another day..hahahha....
when kh came over it got worst...but no time to go to dentist..so tahan saja la...
had really bad toothache but we still enjoy going to pavillion,genting, sunway lagoon n even steamboat buffet...
guess i was really depressed (bcoz of my tooth) n i kinda lepas geram on kh..
hahahahahha.....
alwiz kena ask to do dis n dat....n i got headache oso ma..kenot blame me...
d washing machine still down..hv to handwash...its been yrs since i ever did dat...
hmm....wonder if my tooth can last me a yr...dentist said if it hurts in a weeks time,hv to go back...which i dun wish to..cos she's too expensive...
n she said if still hurt dat means my nerves r rotten from inside liao..
only 2 options...1st, remove d tooth...i'll be toothless....its not d first tooth u noe...
2nd, do root canal surgery...which she'll refer me to specialist n..will cos me about 1200 bucks...
wa lao eh!!!!!!! siau meh....my 2 months salary la.....n dats not it..still hv to do caps...on top of it to prevent from further decay n cracks....
total for everything??? RM2000!!!!!!!!!! i'll rather remove it...
but i'll be toothless...
dun understand y so expensive...last time i did at government clinic...not even 50bucks u noe..
but dat 1 d dentist not so friendly n not mercury free...
wat shud i do??? jus pray dat it wont start aching again or i'll be dooooomed......

yea...

2007-11-28T06:30:00.000+08:00

went to watch stardust yesterday..nice....dat triston so cute after got his "haircut"...hahahhaa....n d storyline not bad..though its a bit out of reality...
haha..today work 1 day den tmr can go genting liao wit kh....
go genting,go shopping...go sunway lagoon...maybe skating..
so many things to do n so little time...
muahahahhaa....
so excited...i can relax liao....
haih..but my commission belum keluar..last mth until now..
dis mth 1 dunno they release or not...
so memalukan....as a dato n boss of eog,cant even affort to pay his staff's commission...
to save money,came out wit weird stuff...like waive commission if dun hit target la...hold salary la...
u urself no money ma settle it adults way lo...y wanna put it on us??
we r innocent...give u time until mid dec..if not,u'll be really famous...
hahaha...mca will be honoured to hv a chat wit u..hahahahaha....

sick again...

2007-11-21T04:30:00.000+08:00

yesterday nite cant sleep at all....so annoying..my nose..mucous keep dripping out,,,,hahhahahha,,,,,geli...
very difficult for me to fall asleep..n today have to work..siau oh...
got better ade but still tersumbat..my nose..cant really breathe..
yesterday josie gave me a white leather bag for my bday...hahahhaah...
its jus wat i wanted..but i think she din check cos at some part of d metal...got karat a bit liao...but nvm la...still can use..hahahha...
mai hiam so much la..
when i think about kh coming on 28th,makes me feel relaxed ade...
i can go shopping,go genting,go casino,go fool around,go long kai....
go anywhere we wan..
but of cos got limited budget n time
she'll be sleeping over...though our room is enuf for 3 of us,but i dunno she'll feel suffocated or not...
hahahhahha..
hostel is like dat la..
if not we can consider sleeping in d living room...

dis few days i'm kinda addicted to pineapple..
ate them almost everyday...
suddenly taste so nice...hahahhha....
hmm.now wann go eat my lunch liao...
i'm still sick...remember???

i'm sick again...

2007-10-26T12:00:00.000+08:00

gosh...i think i'm really sick..last 2 days also my face was like so red liao...till today also like dat..yesterday nite got flu..cos d nite b4 slept at 2am..cried lagi tu...dats y sick liao...haih..today so busy...never been so bz b4....since morning got lots of customer..but d sales is bad...got a lot of stocks coming in...hundreds of them..so tired of unpacking,checking,arranging them...hahhhah....lazy la tu...till now only got time to snake..online..yea yea..tmr go home liao..
miss tua sua ka so much....wanna eat laksa...but have to pray so dat i wont get sick if not kenot eat...

i'm back

2007-10-20T04:58:00.000+08:00

at last...i'm back to work...discharged from hospital on 17th...actually wat happened to me??
let me explain :
on 16th,
i started to worry about my muscle aches n called my agent...den he said "pack ur things..we're going to d hospital now.." t tot allison is still in spore so i jus msg here dat i wanna take mc...den she called to tell dat she's in kl now..so it make things easier for me..i left for hospital at about 12pm..went home,packed my stuff,head straight to sunway medical centre...reach there,register at a&e department...waited for a while...den when d nurse asked me,"so wats wrong wit u?" i din noe wat to say,so my agent answered,"suspected for dengue fever"....hahah...as if la..den i jus smile...after 15 minutes,went in to see d doc..told him how i feel den he straight away demand for a blood test...nurses were running here n there...emergency department ba...shud be dat way kua..a large needle was poked into my arm n ouch!!!!hurt so much...wanna faint liao...acted like a kid...d nurse wanna laugh liao...next,they need my urine..hahahah...such a coincidence..feel like going to d loo...so much to let go..hahahha....den,doc came..."so, r u covered by insurance?" i said ya...den he terus..."good....den i think jus admit u so dat u can claim.." fuh!!!dats so nice of him to understand wat i wan...den,d admission process..took about 30 minutes..so slow la...i waited so bored..den i heard sumone was sent in next to me...open d curtain,wow!!!!! dat lady..all blood all over her body..even her face..d nurse sort of clean n wrap for her den everyone was like so cemas...den nurse shouted,"urgent urgent!!! bed 2,send to d ward now!!!" den gently she tell d mid age aunty,we'll send u to d ward now n d specialist will attend to u very soon...n wait,dis is ur helmet.." d nurse wrap d helmet in a plastic bag n put it near d px's leg...
wow....cool...i wanna work in hospital oso,...so keng n yao yeng..hahahah....
i was sent to d ward later n i tot nice lo...only me alone in 2 beded room...but later got 1 43 yr old aunty come in..sad..she got something in her throat dat has to be remove by surgery tmr morning...though it hurts,she cant stop talking...told me bout her daughter,son...so keng all studying pharmacy...daughter got straight As lagi tu...genius...den jason came over wit mac d...hahahaha...yummy..d food in hospital sucks...at nite he stayed wit me even though its not advisable for adults patient to have visitors overnite but i'm still under age ma..hahahah...but d nurse din say anything oso..they faham faham la..lol...but they'll wake u up in d middle of d nite...jus to see u r ok n take ur temperature n blood pressure...at 6am they wake me up again...at 8am..again..for breakfast..sien..cant sleep well..

on 17th,
doc came to visit at 2.30pm..so late...d nurse lied to me..they said about 10 to 12 den at 12pm they say about 2 pm...so sien la me...watch astro disney channel...den sleep...wake up for lunch den watch tv den sleep...doc said my blood is normal...no muscle inflammation,nth wrong wit urine...so "wat u wanna do?" he asked me...i was like " huh ?" wat? he said i wanna go home or stay another day oso can...no difference...so i choose to go home....he jus say maybe its my veins got spasms...so let me take medicine for a week...1 for muscle another 1 is vitamin B12...if still ache go back to him..actually got appointment on 26th but dunno wanna go or not??my bill was RM1128.70...ciak lat lo..so expensive..den d doc ask them to discharged me at 2.34pm but i waited till 5.30pm..cos...have to wait for my insurance approval...so wait lo...but when i tot everything's done,went downstairs at discharge counter,dat lady suddenly tell me,"i'm sorry miss,but ur insurance company seems to decline ur hospital bill...so can u pls pay dis amount?"showing me d total of RM1128.70...i was like,siao ar u?????where got like dat one????but i kept quiet n cool...den my agent who came to fetch me,called his company den after a while...he still have to pay d bill first...d nurse said,"maybe u can claim later but jus pay now ok?".....so he pay lo..i dun care..if cant claim,i buy insurance for wat???den better dun buy...after dat had dinner wit my sis n d agent n he fetch me home....like dat 1 day gone liao...sien...

on 18th pulak,
nth to do..mc ma..so stayed at home lo..boring..watched comedy den watch house of wax...so geli...disgusting....tot of eating something different so ordered domino's pizza...minimum order regular size so,order lo...with double decker crust..wow..d cheese...so yummy...mengalir keluar...dats my lunch n dinner...so full...den i slept for d rest of d day....nth to do ma...allison came back wit souvenirs...i got a purple coin purse..really like it...n a set of couple key chain..n without telling me she gave d boy one to jason liao...so i was speechless la..anything lo..dun really bother..hahah...as long as i got mine...lol.....

wat shud i do????

2007-10-16T10:39:00.000+08:00

came back from clinic ade...guess wat d doc says..."i think ur body is lack of salt...so i'll jus let u take some rehydration salt n we'll see wat happen"....i terus gong ki...he din even check wit his thermometer to see whether i have fever or not...really trust wat i say...when i told him dat my muscle really ache a lot den he prescribe paracetamol....feel like wanna pengsan more....
den at last i use all my courage to ask him,"do u think i might have dengue??"
wow...shud have take his pic dat time..he looked so lost...like huh???wat???
i really dunno whether i shud believe him....den after staring aimlessly at me for about 10 seconds,he finally answered, "erm....y?anything weird happened to u?" i replied,"ya..i got a huge mosquitoe bite here....it bulge out few days ago...den after dat i got all dis sypmtom...look at my hands...they dun used to be dis colour...its reddish inside...i was yellow..."hahahhaah....to think back dat was so funny...den he pressed my hand wit his finger...den my thigh...n he press again...n again...
i tot he'll say like, we need to look at ur problem seriously..mana tau..."well,it might be virus infection though...but a very mild one..cos u dun have fever...(excuse me??did u take my body temperature??)......
he continues,"if u wan,u can do blood test at hospital...jus go to emergency department n tell them u wan a blood test on dengue"..i said,"den y dun u do it here?" he replied,"hey today is public holiday,all d labs r closed..so if u really wan,u can try at hospitals..."
after dat, he told me to take rehydration salt twice a day for 3 days...den if nth happen,go back to him...so i was thinking,shud i go to d hospital???wat r u trying to say???i really dun understand...but it was too late cos i only realised dat when i stepped out d clinic...hhahahahhaah......crazy gal...now at shud i do??
kim hwa said dat u dun need to hv a fever to hv dengue....but jason said,dengue must come with fever....
my insurance agent said,u dun have fever ar??den not dengue lo..but if u wanna check oso can..jus go to clinic la..our medical card wont pay for dat..only pay if u masuk hospital...n stay there...
so?? d conclusion is...i'm so lost....wat shud i do?going back to d clinic tmr to take blood test feels like a fool...ppl ask u to wait 3 days...u so hurry for wat???
but dat doc jus now is replacement only..tmr d full time doc will be here....shud i go to her or not?? she's much better in terms of service n knowledge....

too late...

2007-10-16T05:07:00.000+08:00

gosh....y d doctor so lazy one...jus went to d clinic jus now but they r closed...only open at 6pm...missed it liao...now have to wait 4 hours...i'm getting worried after talking to kim hwa about my muscle ache n patches on my skin..jus now online google for denggi n malaria..it says there dat 1 of d symptom is d skin will be reddish with ur original complexion in patches...looks like mine...it says there "white island on red sea"....shit....den joint pain i got...jus dat i dun have fever...but i hope its not la cos i dun have d main symptom ma...dis is d akibat for being stubborn..ppl ask me go see doc earlier i berkeras dun wan...now scared liao wanna go liao but clinic closed...aih...its fate la...

itchy la...

2007-10-16T02:37:00.000+08:00

d sky is quite blue today...ah!!!really dunno wat's wrong wit my skin..now my elbow got something bulging out..1 biji..looks like allergy....but i did nth n ate nth special...so itchy..those thing dat looks like "rashes" r still there..when only they'll be gone.....kenot tahan liao...i hv to shake when i shower oso...embarrassing...
dis morning came to work alone..mengada lebih..naik miang call cab..end up RM11.00....sakit hati betul...haih...no money liao..have been using so much lately..bout RM800.00 liao...shit...
have to save...for driving test,for my amway skincare products...my body shop cosmetics...bloodyfool la they all...alwiz increase increase d price...never reduce...last time d loose powder was only RM30++ now RM55..
ciak lat lo....

haih..sad..dis few days din do any sales...all oso sell contact lenses nia..baru beberapa puluh or hundred++ nia..commission lagi takde...how i'm gonna survive???? very sueh one...few times liao..when d customer walk in,i serve... den they wanna adjust frame..ma adjust lo...den suddenly they talk to josie....say wanna change new frame la...den she'll show them....den it'll be her customer liao...sad...all i did is adjustment....so unlucky...
but nvm la...it's still d branch sales..my sales really die liao...only did 3000...today 15th liao....shit la..
end of d month on leave for 6 days lagi...aiyo....die lo...
kenot like dat liao...have to be more aggressive today...public holiday..nobody....nvm la..try lo..
do more sales!!!!!! do more sales!!!!! gambateh oh~~~~~~

my first post on blogspot

2007-10-14T07:40:00.000+08:00

it's been raining dis few days..hmm..starting a new blog sounds weird to me..but promised kim hwa dat i'll continue..so have to la..so cold here..today hari raya still need to work!!
everyone is enjoying their holidays while i'm still stuck here...
something really weird happened to me since d day b4 yesterday..my arms n legs...they r extremely tired even though i did nth for d past few days..it jus feel like i have been standing or exercising for yrs..they hurt so badly n its like muscle cramps..
on my skin,can notice dat there r little red dots all over my arms n legs...i dun use to have them u see...though they dun hurt..cos it seems like those dots are inside my skin...looks a bit like my cappillaries have broken inside..but ...i dunno...
they ask me go see doctor but i refuse...
come on..it's public holiday..den sumore if d doctor say i'm ok how????
very paiswh one leh...guess i'll jus wait till it slowly recover..if it dun den only consider whether wanna see doctor or not...disturb my sleep only...
whole nite can feel d cramp...
din get a good nite sleep...

haih...sumtimes i jus dun understand those ppl...alwiz keep their feelings,their thoughts to themselves..
how do they expect others to read their mind...
to me,if i'm not happy or upset of sumthing u've done,i'll let u noe...
by keeping to yourself only make things worst..it'll lead to arguements..fights..endless lagi tu...we'll never have d chance to understand each other more if they keep doing dat...
we r all blessed with mouth n voice box so dat we could express our feelings..by keeping quiet,u r acting like a mute person..or a doll...i wont wanna be wit a doll...
i'll rather be wit myself...
sumtimes we dun noe wat we really really wan....so humans make mistakes..
but its good dat i realized it early..b4 its too late...