frustrated

went to jusco today and bought apair of jeans, shoes, few baju.. its been about 2 weeks since i m transfer to pacific branch. still not getting used to it. i guess my holiday mood wont go away dat quick.. been a tough time. 1st time in my life i have to decide on so many things, all new.. and messed up. i guess its a challenge given by GOD. a real tough challenge.. but i've learned and growed so much from this. once in a lifetime experience. realized dat life's just too short. maybe dont be to conservative, risk is not always bad. its always give and take..

been so lonely in bm.. i miss kl.. dun wish to argue with them at home every other day. just too tired of arguements. i m really not used to be controlled or "cared"..

so messed up and stressed.. why those people never think of their retirement.. why they never bother to care?? how they think they'll survive after retirement?? reall dont understand..
to have children is to give them the chance to experience life.. to have their own life with your love and blessings..
not to let yourself be their burden and make them feel helpless...