my precious baby...lol...

food poisoning

pathetic..i m on medical leave today just because i ate some frozen durian yesterday nite.. sad..
i vomitted 4 times and diarrhea 3 times before i nearly pass out. everything looks so black. so they were worried and brought me to the doctor. and i was diagnosed with "food poisoning". back from clinic at 8 smth. felt like i didnt sleep for years.. went to my room and i pengsan terus.. but manage to wake up and brush my teeth at 10pm.. after that, straight away Zzzzz... and woke up 9.30am. slept for 11.5 hours for god's sake.. cant believe myself..
now i m a patient, staying at home. eating porridge. life sucks.. i m missing somebody that i shouldnt miss... or maybe i think i shouldnt..
oh...life sucks.. it really does.. haha..

awwwwww

at last tomorrow can off..relax. wanted to go sing k..but i think better rest at home..been a tiring week.. maybe go on friday.. my acne popping out from my forehead.. gosh!!
so many of them..need to get rid of my fringe d..old d...skin deteriorate...brain too.. alwiz no energy to drive...long journey to work really taking much of my energy..need to rest tmr..sleep sleep n sleep...

frustrated

went to jusco today and bought apair of jeans, shoes, few baju.. its been about 2 weeks since i m transfer to pacific branch. still not getting used to it. i guess my holiday mood wont go away dat quick.. been a tough time. 1st time in my life i have to decide on so many things, all new.. and messed up. i guess its a challenge given by GOD. a real tough challenge.. but i've learned and growed so much from this. once in a lifetime experience. realized dat life's just too short. maybe dont be to conservative, risk is not always bad. its always give and take..

been so lonely in bm.. i miss kl.. dun wish to argue with them at home every other day. just too tired of arguements. i m really not used to be controlled or "cared"..

so messed up and stressed.. why those people never think of their retirement.. why they never bother to care?? how they think they'll survive after retirement?? reall dont understand..
to have children is to give them the chance to experience life.. to have their own life with your love and blessings..
not to let yourself be their burden and make them feel helpless...