its been yrs since i last updated my blog....haha....nobody wana view anymore......jus read jamie's blog jus now,kesian la....but in life, if u never taste bitter, u wont appreciate sweetness....

got my results few days ago, passed my exam..at last!!!!! after how many million yrs of delay....
finally wana pay ade...so now i m a qualified optician...but d cert hv to wait for uk to send it to hometown..
met dato yesterday, he wants me to take challenge....but.....i m jus a worthless little gal...y me??
i noe i look tough but i cant handle so much stress....he wants me to answer him by tuesday...
whether i wan to stay here n make a 80k sales for him(currently is 48k) or transfer to other branch...n same thing...challenge him, build up sales...all he wants is sales....ya la..i noe, he's d boss ma....or last choice..bcome float...btw 2 branches. tot so easy meh? no responsibility but sales very not stable...which branch need optician,hv to go..feels like tennis ball...hit here n there...

so tired dis few days...hv to work for 7 days...continuosly....y am i so gud?? i can actually jus leave both of them...den i can take off....but i cannot "fong sam"....i m jus too responsible on my job..but who cares?? only god noes.... i m tired.. i need a break.. or maybe i shud take challenge n get out of dis boring branch...den jus go fool around outside....try new things dat i never tried... take new challenges...at least i noe i did smth extraordinary in my life...smth dat i dun dare to try...
it only takes courage...nth else.....

hmm....but...i dunno but wat...but i jus...wana say d word but...haha.....
i m scared...pressured...afraid dat i m not able to take challenge... i've learned dat in dis society, there's no 1 better to help u, to side u, to back u up, other than urself......
dats life...ya dats jus life...come on gal...grow up...

my mum's putting a big hope on my backpay..those salary dat r hold when my results r hold...
i guess they r thinking now, wat to buy wit my backpay...new car? new XXX....
everything new....my dad..is d biggest problem....they sure ask me to pay house loan,all bills....
maybe dat tv at home,which is broken....
or he might suddenly appear in front of my house in kl...den borrow some cash to go visit uncle lim.....see??
i hv commitments....so, to commit to dato dat i can do better than anthony who cays he can commit 70k, its a very very big deal to me.....
again...to remind u, i m jus a weak,tiny,helpless..clueless...little gal...
jus let me finish my 2 yrs contract with u n i can do wat ever i wan...
air hostess maybe....or learn manicure....how about hair styling??
those were my "ambitions" other than nutritionist....but dis is a bit too impossible...haha...
nvm....since dat i've live my life until today...i'll hv to continue living it as crazy n as memorable as possible.....
alwiz remember : there wont be another year in ur life where u can say i m 22 yrs old....
when will u hv another 23,24,25,26 n so on....so hv to appreciate it really well....do wat u wish to do,dream as big as u wan....make sure u've done ur best to achieve wat u wan to reach in life....
ppl alwiz say..d result is not important, its d journey dat matters....


so jus live life up...n put troubles in a pocket with a hole....haha...
but i usually cant do it...its a bit difficult....

come on gals......learn to love urself...respect urself...accept urself....dis way u r making d world to love, respect n accept u as who u think u r.....
so...i think i m cute, n lovely.....hahahahahaahahah.......................

wow...i felt much relieved after blah"ing" so much out here.....it jus feel sOOOOOOOOO gOOOOOOOOOOOd......
wakakakakakaka....
wana close shop liao....bye bye my dear, my love, my everything..........